I just realized lately that I don't have many friends who are my own age. I look at most of the people that I hang out with on a regular basis and they are all three, five, seven years older than me. I used to think it was because I was so mature that I just could not relate to people my own age, and to some extent that is true. I think I just haven't found anyone that can relate to me. I don't have that many people who truly understand me, and so I look to spend time with older people so they aren't constantly judging me or even trying to get to know me. They just accept me.

I guess in some ways it isn't a good thing. I don't feel like I relate very well to people my own age. I don't have someone that I can talk to who is going through the same things that I am, at least not anymore. Sometimes it sucks because I don't feel like I am very close with the people I hang around with, I just like feeling included.

Sometimes I think I'm a little bit pathetic.